never ending happiness

" Happiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace and gratitude." Denis Waitley

It was a very enjoyous night.

I escape myself from my work in Rawang sharp at 530pm. A very helpful friend of mine; shall i say my partner of crime?; picked me up all the way from Rawang. All three of us drove straight from Rawang to the workshop's venue. What workshop is it? Well, it was called as " How to attract your love ideal with law of attraction". The title may sound very inviting but the surrounding for the venue was not. Totally NOT. It is so not convenient to have such workshop in the middle of attention where EVERYONE could actually see you in every way; left,right, up above and etc.

So, we reached there around 6.00 pm and registered around 6.30 pm. All of us receive a door gift for each of us. There were plenty of stuff inside. A voucher for an unknown restaurant, a stapled forms for the workshop where you have to fill them up, i suppose. A magnet of "Valentine's Day". A badge of " RESET";where you can push the RESET  when you are feeling down. (i like that one actually). A free chewing gum for 3 packs. A heart shape chocolates (That was cool!). Hurrmm, that was all i think. we then, sat for while and then walk off when my man arrived. He can't join the workshop due to the contract he was bonded with. Thus, to avoid any conflict of interest, all four of us left the place and headed to a different place.

A few minutes later, another couple; our friends too arrived. They also did not make it for the workshop and left but they still catched another movie. Unlike for us. We arrived at the new place and have our dinner. Pictures were taken but they were in my man's handphone. I should ask him to upload soon. Wee~

 What is next?  Let the ball slide along the alley! Ha-ha. I have not play for a very long time and i totally agree to be part of the game. We played two games with two teams. Me with RS.  While A with D. So, the name in the position was R, A, N, D = Rand. What is that? Ha-ha. Well, for the first turn, i was VERY bad but i am improving for every turn. I have a very good couch indeed. Eventhough it was very annoying to have your ears filled with advice all the way before you throw the ball, but it is very helpful. I should learn in how to accept advices. He-he.

Sharp at 11.00 pm, we leaved the place. I sent A off to his place and drove home. Safely and without traffice jam! How peaceful it was last night to drove all the way back home without queing the line. So, i reached home around 11.30m pm and took a cup of hot Milo to freshen up. Took my short shower and later fall asleep.

A very tiring night but very enjoyous and happiness are all around me. I fall asleep with a smile on my face.

Thanks people for making my day with a very happy ending.

Thanks for those that fetched me all the way from Rawang; you guys are very my saviour for the day. I was glad and grateful to have such parties that are willing to fetch me.

Thanks for my man, for the very 'helpful' support and never ending love.

Thanks.

I love you all especially YOU.

The end.

lesson learnt and become the guidance to the future

"a deep conversation can bring a thousand reasons to smile"

i missed this moment where we once had a very deep conversation and let out what has been kept inside, where all the misunderstanding has finally comes to its solution and settle out those complications that we ourselves have created. and yet, the past has to be remain as our past. and just let the current life be the guidance towards our future. and it has happened again that night.

thanks again for everything that we have gone through together once. for every memories that we have been walking together along with the ups and downs. we have also treasured a lot back then created a lot too.

nothing more that i could have asked, except the forgiveness from you.

and yes, i do agree.

you were wrong. you have made your mistakes by not taking me seriously, by not realizing that i am; sometimes was right. that you should at least make a space to accept how the truth is on my side; was my side. but what can we do now? it is done and we can't be there anymore; it is useless; it is impossible.

"sebelum kita tidur, kita harus meminta kemaafan dari semua pihak yang pernah kita sakiti dan memaafkan mereka yang menyakiti hati kita tatkala takut kita takkan membuka mata kembali selepas kita melelapkannya"

these words spoken by you; is true.

so, it is fair now between us.

Finally you have learnt your lesson.

Finally you have opened up your eyes and heart.

and i hope those journey will give you the opportunity to become a new person onwards.

you may feel the emptiness now in your heart; but believe me, it will just be for a while.

for Allah will not put you in this test if He knows that you can't get through all this.

what has become will always has its reason.

i am glad now. i am relief now.

Thanks Allah for everything.

Thanks for opening his heart.

Thanks for this journey.

and Thanks for this lesson that we have learn.

have you ever wonder what she feels?

have you ever wonder why she is always in this kind of situation?

ever feel that your friends just used you when they were sad and in trouble?

and then..

when they are in heaven or happy moments, they just become silent like we didn't exist at all? no call or texts. not even a single 'hi' or 'how are you today?'

when last time, they always bump into you, calls you and cry with you.. text you and non-stop sms-ing you.. but now??

they just suddenly; disappear into thins air?

pity for her. to always feel that way.

so, no doubt for it to happen again.

so, my little girl..

it's life.

this is normal. 
you just need to adapt with it.

i wish to be where he is now

nak tau ape saya rasa sekarang?

saya rindu dia.

saya mahu bersama di mana dia berada sekarang.

saya mahu mengisi segala masa lapang saya dengan si dia

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i love you love.

i miss you love.

i want to be with you love.

:)

GGs day out; again !

girls! i had fun today.

after a long time i didn't meet and hangout with my favourite girls; we finally had lunch together.

that was fun and very updating. eventhough it was just for a little while; but i do feel it as a precious moments.

FULLHOUSE, SUNWAY PYRAMID

Mona Shamili, Siti Farhatul Khalidah, Nor Diyana, Fatihah Mysara Fazreen : thanks sebab datang gather gather and lunch bersama - sama.. saya suke!

Remie Suhaili : kamu missing in action; again. =(

Nur Najwa & Nur Aqilah : sad that you can't make it today.

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oh oh. there is one thing i nak share!

finally. FINALLY!

i beli the REDsweater that i have been searching!

thanks to Eton.

she was the one that noticed it in the shopping mall. sye love!

SEE.

sangat merah.

itu yang saya minat!

love!

books. oh my books. i love them! =)

saya rase saya ni seorang yg boros. haha. name je akauntan, auditor .. tapi tak reti nak manage duit. haih~

saya baru sedar yang saya ade byk koleksi buku yang belum dibaca; tapi saya masih membeli buku-buku baru untuk dibaca. ;p

HOW TO GET WHAT YOU WANT AND WANT WHAT YOU HAVE.

this is the current book that i have been starting to read it since last year but due to my lack of free time; i have stop reading it and haven't continue in reading it. how i wish time will just stop for a while to allow me to enjoy reading it back. =)

 TERTIB PERIBADI

well, for your information; i did not buy this book. i got it free when my class made a tour to ALAF 21 factory in shah alam. all of us received one book each. so, this is what i got. haha.

  ROMEO & JULIET

i have been searching for this book for years. the last time i actually read this book was when i was in MRSM PONTIAN. well, yeah. there is some collection of literature in my library that year. i did enjoy reading it but it was kidda hard to understand due to its high literacy value.. huhu. so, when i get this book in my hand, i have my own time to actually understand this love story =)

 THE ROAD LESS TRAVELED

well, this title reminds me of the literature that we took when we were in secondary school. i have been in that specific condition few years back. that is why i want to buy this book when i incidently pass by the book shelves in Carefour. hehe.

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so, that were all the collection of my books that i haven't even start reading it. i don't know when i can truly finish them all. i hope i manage to at least finish one book per week or per month. ahahaha. very busy with my practical work until i don't even have time for my own. sad.

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and recently.... my eyes caught a new book while i was paying for my breakfast that i bought at the ground floor of KPMG tower; which was two days ago. memang tanye ni gatal sgt. mata pulak tajam gile. maka, hasilnya, buku ini di dalam tangan saya. =) huhu.

YASMIN AHMAD'S FILMS

i like watching her movies but i haven't watch all of them. so i decided to buy this book. wee~

a new collection of mine

tonight, i want to write about my friend.

a few months ago, i was introduced by a friend of my boyfriend; to his girlfriend. well, at first, i never thought that we could get along because both of us are totally two different person. but now, i guess i was wrong. we even become closer now, not that close but we do gossiping around. and i like it when she is there. i feel happy and awake. she is soo talkative and never know the moment to stop talking.

she is indeed a very funny and outgoing girl. she can manage herself well and hang around with anyone around her. that is what i like about her.

it has been a week since i last met her, and now, she might be sleeping already.

somehow, i feel that i miss her; a little.

weird right? i just got to know her like months and we are like sisters.

chatting around through YM. gossiping about peoples. trying to make both of us feel good

how funny.

we shared quite a couple of secrets too. well, i know some of her secrets. but i don't think i've shared mine, yet. well, i am no type of sharing my secrets now. i rather keep them all by myself. its already a nature to me. i'm sorry. but maybe one fine day, i may just blurted them out.

she is sick now.

she said that she has lost some of her memories.

that is very weird. i know. maybe she is suffering from short term memory lost.

i thought maybe she is just joking around but it seem real to me when she told me everything, i was worried; of course. and i hope she will go and see the doctor real soon. so that she can figure out what really happen to her.

i was just finishing up in reading her blog with her boyfriend. it was so sweet. it was like a diary written by two writer. the wide smile & the big eyes. comel kan mereka berdua? their post are lovely too. =) i am now following their blog to hear any good or bitter updates.

oh; how i hope i can hangout with them again. time is very precious for me now. i dunno why but i found that i don't have enough time to split them of into all kind of categories of friend i have. sometimes, this could actually give me a pressure. because i need to make everyone satisfied. and i need to be equal enough. which i am doubted with now. ;(

i miss my best friend too. tomorrow night; i'm suppose to have a dinner with her and other friends; but it was postponed to next week. so how? when can i meet her? weekdays already burn out for work. sunday is reserve for sungai buloh. i only have saturday to put everyone in. and more when my parents are like this? i cant really put everyone in the same list for on eday. im suffering here. ;(

so, how about tomorrow?

where should i be?

with whom should i choose to be with?

i need some guidance.